Bubblelicious

i just got back from the funeral of a fellow colleague. he succumbed to cancer shortly after an operation yesterday, at age 30. it took a while for the news of his death to sink in, because brain tumour only happens to people in TV, not real life, and especially not someone who is young and healthy (gawd, i sound so self-absorbed). when you are gone, what is the legacy you want to leave behind? an utterly unremarkable being that people struggle to describe in your eulogy? or someone who will be so sorely missed, that no amount of words can do justice, because he or she has touched so many lives? i strive to be the latter.

try as i might, all i want to do is to wave the white flag. it took me five years to realize that i can't change a man. now i'm stuck in a place where i can't move on, unless i choose to give up or just suck it up. if love is about compromise, then mine is not love.

Last few weeks was a killer. let's see, i work around the clock to make sure that i get my things done by 6.30, then i dash off to Microsoft class for 3 hours, then back to office again to continue any unfinished business *wails* this is totally inhumane wei... to reward my diligence, i bought a ton of makeup again! me, mei zhi and lu signed up for Stila workshop coupla weeks ago hoping to learn some "tricks of the trade" (partly also to get the free lip glaze :p). and we ended up buying an obscene amount of Stila makeups *gulps* after the workshop and a fattening lunch (at Delicious Cafe of coz, my current favourite indulgence), me and mei zhi did a bit more shopping on the way back to the carpark even though we kept promising ourselves no more "detours". when we finally got to the carpark, horrors of horrors, we are so broke to the extent that we couldn't afford to pay our parking fees. after we pooled every single cent, its still not enough to cover the p